I love the new format! It’s cool hearing your entries but also nice just hearing you talk.
I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve felt hangover symptoms since getting sober and each time I was legitimately sick or physically overworked, hadn’t eaten or slept enough for a few days, etc. I was incredibly guilty and triggered by the whole thing. Like I wasn’t really sick even though I was. Remembering when I used to be hungover everyday and would work through it bc it wasn’t a valid excuse. So now I feel the same way even when I’m legitimately sick. Cold/flu, etc is no big deal. But hangover symptoms make me feel guilty like I just woke up from a drinking dream. It’s so weird. Not sure why I’m rambling about this, you just reminded me.
Also I didn’t know about your panic attack, but that is messed up that they didn’t have you taper given the hallucinations. I was seeing things and pain, cold sweats, nauseous, my depression/ anxiety was through the roof even with the tapering so I’m not sure how you did it. I totally get the not wanting to take Tylenol and liver problems. It still amazes me when I can take things with acetaminophen and not worry about it anymore.
Anyway, sorry for this super long comment. This post meant the world to me and you are so encouraging of others as well. I always focus on how hard it is, i never think about spreading hope like you do. Amazing job.
😭 awww, Lyns. Thank you so much for taking the time to write this. There is so much soldiering through things out of guilt when we are drinking. We just don't realize that in itself requires some healing, or it will mess up our contentment in sobriety.
What you describe is spot on for me. Being legit sick and feeling like poo, but automatically pushing through. I definitely felt that impulse this time, but consciously managed it and made sure I rested until I felt back to normal (which really feels like just this morning!).
Thank you for the solidarity in sobriety, writing, and life. ❤️
I love the new format! It’s cool hearing your entries but also nice just hearing you talk.
I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve felt hangover symptoms since getting sober and each time I was legitimately sick or physically overworked, hadn’t eaten or slept enough for a few days, etc. I was incredibly guilty and triggered by the whole thing. Like I wasn’t really sick even though I was. Remembering when I used to be hungover everyday and would work through it bc it wasn’t a valid excuse. So now I feel the same way even when I’m legitimately sick. Cold/flu, etc is no big deal. But hangover symptoms make me feel guilty like I just woke up from a drinking dream. It’s so weird. Not sure why I’m rambling about this, you just reminded me.
Also I didn’t know about your panic attack, but that is messed up that they didn’t have you taper given the hallucinations. I was seeing things and pain, cold sweats, nauseous, my depression/ anxiety was through the roof even with the tapering so I’m not sure how you did it. I totally get the not wanting to take Tylenol and liver problems. It still amazes me when I can take things with acetaminophen and not worry about it anymore.
Anyway, sorry for this super long comment. This post meant the world to me and you are so encouraging of others as well. I always focus on how hard it is, i never think about spreading hope like you do. Amazing job.
😭 awww, Lyns. Thank you so much for taking the time to write this. There is so much soldiering through things out of guilt when we are drinking. We just don't realize that in itself requires some healing, or it will mess up our contentment in sobriety.
What you describe is spot on for me. Being legit sick and feeling like poo, but automatically pushing through. I definitely felt that impulse this time, but consciously managed it and made sure I rested until I felt back to normal (which really feels like just this morning!).
Thank you for the solidarity in sobriety, writing, and life. ❤️
I think doing things that scare us help us grow.
❤️ yes, figuring out that cognitive dissonance was key. Being both afraid to stay the same AND afraid to change.