I am offering these peeks into my journal entries from my first year of sobriety, which describe the challenges and personal growth I experienced. I hope to offer hope or at least a sort of roadmap for an alcohol-free life.
If you are new and interested, jump back to the May 3, 2024 Day 1 post. It was getting tedious to type these handwritten journal entries out (nothing creative in that!) so I switched to the audio feature. Feel free to message me with any comments.
Warning: This may be boring to those who have never wanted to live a life without alcohol in it.
9.27.24 Journal Entry Notes.
I realized I should probably have included trigger warnings in many of my essays and on these entries. Please accept my apologies and excuse that I am new to writing for public consumption. Trigger warning: Violence in nightmares, sexual assault (rape).
These nightmare accounts were a bit jarring to read today. For context, I had been suffering from frequent nightmares and sleep paralysis related to PTSD since I was raped in 2014 by my former husband. While I went to see a therapist after that happened because I was struggling to face each day and afraid to fall asleep at night, it wasn’t until I started consulting a dream interpreter/oracle in mid-2023 that the nightmares and sleep paralysis finally started to resolve.
See, there was a reason my subconscious kept trying to get my attention. Even after I got sober and had mostly worked through the abuse and rape, there was a lot of unprocessed trauma to be sorted and dealt with now that my conscious mind knew I was finally safe.
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