"I must put down the weapon of productivity that is the throbbing wound underneath the scars. I cannot take this with me into my transformed selfhood."
This line nailed it! I just wrote last night in my journal about the SHEDDIING happening right now, the pain and the struggle of letting go, allowing the new self to emerge. It is a process that I am engaged in personally within, as well as externally with aging family members whom I dearly love as they lose autonomy, bodily control, and definitions of self that have been outgrown. 'Productivity' sounds like a hollow word in a foreign language. Thank you for these questions and guidance. It helps me unpack horrendously confusing baggage and sort out what is mine to carry and what I've outgrown. It feels like this time calls for a seemingly harsh and brutal self-truth but I still want to find a way to weave compassion into the process.
Sending compassion and appreciation for your transformation, Leenie, and that of the older people in your world. 💗🙏🏽
I also think part of the reason it is so hard to let go is that the narrative we were given is that we 'grow up' and then personal transformation is over until we pass. Perhaps the system is set up for us to play our role, then exit stage left.
In accepting the impulse to transform, it comes not only at an internal emotional cost, but an external cost because we are shaking up the dominant narrative, perhaps.
Wonderful post, Maria; thank you! I appreciate that you share your own experience with the awareness you've cultivated on your journey, as well as the examples you give from your own chart. I love that you're fully awakening the power of your Leo Sun/Mars conjunction in the 10th by shining your light brightly in your larger community and saying 'yes' to playing the role that you're meant to play in this lifetime, as well as courageously stepping into the meaningful, purposeful service and work that befits you with your Aries Moon in the 6th. I feel a similar energy with Saturn, a South Node ruler for me, in Virgo in the 6th. Although I've worked for myself my whole adult life, it had always been through the lens of the Protestant Work Ethic that was so ingrained in my psyche, epigenetics, and being. So while I was doing what I loved, what transformed myself and others, and what filled my cup, I was doing so in a quite an unhealthy way. The Uranian opposition has been shaking up that tendency completely, and this Full Moon directly on Uranus, my pivot, leaves room for pieces I'd left behind in other times to be fully seen, known, and integrated as what no longer serves falls away. Thank you for being on the journey and for sharing your heart! Powerful medicine.
Lila! This is a beautiful reflection. I love that the Full Moon on your natal Uranus is putting YOU back into the equation of meaningful work, as opposed to the purpose or the work itself being the sole components.
I am definitely feeling the lunations becoming more potent in different ways as the outer planets make big shifts and there are configurations of aspects we haven't seen before.
THANK YOU! With suicide as something to heal in this lifetime for myself and my family line, there has been such deep work this time around. It feels so nourishing to finally feel some BIG integration here. Thank you for seeing that and me!
Yes, it is really interesting to feel how these huge planetary shifts are lighting up the moon's role in different ways. I will continue to sit with this as the cycles unfold. I just love astrology!
Such potent times!! This one has been healed for a bit, thank the gods, but honestly, some very deep things are shifting, and it's incredible. I love this for our collective!
"I must put down the weapon of productivity that is the throbbing wound underneath the scars. I cannot take this with me into my transformed selfhood."
This line nailed it! I just wrote last night in my journal about the SHEDDIING happening right now, the pain and the struggle of letting go, allowing the new self to emerge. It is a process that I am engaged in personally within, as well as externally with aging family members whom I dearly love as they lose autonomy, bodily control, and definitions of self that have been outgrown. 'Productivity' sounds like a hollow word in a foreign language. Thank you for these questions and guidance. It helps me unpack horrendously confusing baggage and sort out what is mine to carry and what I've outgrown. It feels like this time calls for a seemingly harsh and brutal self-truth but I still want to find a way to weave compassion into the process.
Sending compassion and appreciation for your transformation, Leenie, and that of the older people in your world. 💗🙏🏽
I also think part of the reason it is so hard to let go is that the narrative we were given is that we 'grow up' and then personal transformation is over until we pass. Perhaps the system is set up for us to play our role, then exit stage left.
In accepting the impulse to transform, it comes not only at an internal emotional cost, but an external cost because we are shaking up the dominant narrative, perhaps.
This is very meaningful to me, Maria. Thank you for sharing this reading. 🩶
You are so welcome, my friend!
This reminds me of how I explain Chiron placements in people’s charts—it’s how we are wounded where we eventually heal others.
That is beautiful, Tess. I found my Chiron return to be as powerful as any of the major outer planet transits!
Wonderful post, Maria; thank you! I appreciate that you share your own experience with the awareness you've cultivated on your journey, as well as the examples you give from your own chart. I love that you're fully awakening the power of your Leo Sun/Mars conjunction in the 10th by shining your light brightly in your larger community and saying 'yes' to playing the role that you're meant to play in this lifetime, as well as courageously stepping into the meaningful, purposeful service and work that befits you with your Aries Moon in the 6th. I feel a similar energy with Saturn, a South Node ruler for me, in Virgo in the 6th. Although I've worked for myself my whole adult life, it had always been through the lens of the Protestant Work Ethic that was so ingrained in my psyche, epigenetics, and being. So while I was doing what I loved, what transformed myself and others, and what filled my cup, I was doing so in a quite an unhealthy way. The Uranian opposition has been shaking up that tendency completely, and this Full Moon directly on Uranus, my pivot, leaves room for pieces I'd left behind in other times to be fully seen, known, and integrated as what no longer serves falls away. Thank you for being on the journey and for sharing your heart! Powerful medicine.
Lila! This is a beautiful reflection. I love that the Full Moon on your natal Uranus is putting YOU back into the equation of meaningful work, as opposed to the purpose or the work itself being the sole components.
I am definitely feeling the lunations becoming more potent in different ways as the outer planets make big shifts and there are configurations of aspects we haven't seen before.
THANK YOU! With suicide as something to heal in this lifetime for myself and my family line, there has been such deep work this time around. It feels so nourishing to finally feel some BIG integration here. Thank you for seeing that and me!
Yes, it is really interesting to feel how these huge planetary shifts are lighting up the moon's role in different ways. I will continue to sit with this as the cycles unfold. I just love astrology!
You are so welcome, I appreciate your engagement here!
It seems that a lot of people lately are finding places where pain has been hiding for a very long time. ❤️🩹
Such potent times!! This one has been healed for a bit, thank the gods, but honestly, some very deep things are shifting, and it's incredible. I love this for our collective!
I appreciate your engagement here too. ✨🙏✨