It’s kind of amazing that I didn’t go back to numbing out with alcohol, given the numerous little frustrations and past trauma I was encountering in these entries. A huge reason I did not is that I think I knew deep down I was in the messy and oozing cocoon, becoming someone who wouldn’t want to numb out. I was cleaning up my shit so I could be free. Another reason I didn’t go back to drinking was the BFB, the Facebook group where I check in every day. I would never have believed there could be so much love and support in a Facebook group. It’s pretty amazing.
CW for this audio entry: alcohol use disorder, sexual assault, pelvic floor injuries, nightmares
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