I just got the braiding sweet grass book for Xmas! Will have to check it out. I am learning so much from these breakdowns. I also appreciated you sharing the example with your mom. You got me good a few times. Playing the role of good daughter. Depleting your bandwidth that could be used for something better? Even asking us to think of the times we don’t stand for ourselves. I think of it as by not standing up for myself I’m giving the other person a gift. Even if it’s just a gift of not being a burden. But I’m being selfless to make things better for someone else. I never thought of it as abandoning myself. Or that the years I have left matter too. Woah this one got me real good. Thanks for making me think. 🩶
I agree! This one definitely hit home. When I dived deep into where this pattern of self-abandonment came from, I realized that it wasn't all on my mother, and that tantamount moment in my life when she literally abandoned me just as I was entering school. I thought that pivotal experience had shaped me more than it actually had. In truth, our whole culture had been teaching me self-abandonment almost from birth, as a female especially. All the repetition of that question, "What will you BE when you grow up?" as if I were presently nothing, not yet BE-ing anything of value or a recognizable, useful category of person. In an odd sort of way, it lightened the burden surrounding my relationship with my mother and helped me celebrate the wins in recent years when I have learned truly not to abandon myself, which is far worse than someone else abandoning me. Great questions, Maria!
Mars is often presented with a simplified slant. It helped me to really look at when and how I take action and ask whether I was consistently applying my Mars or whether I was out of alignment somewhere - and why.
❤️ all the exploration and excavation you are doing! Know that you are in good company!
Thank you, Maria. This is so helpful and I am glad to be back to my astro studies and explorations after the hectic holiday season. I'm thankful that I journaled and answered those two big questions in depth before reading on. Mars in Cancer (opposing Sun and Jupiter in Cap) couldn't be more spot on as a modus operandi than your description and I'm glad I mined that through my journal explorations before confirming it externally. Home is where the heart(h) is and the essential foundation of all that I do. I feel less ashamed of my need to retreat and steward my solitude, in order to be effective socially (selectively and with careful intention).
I just got the braiding sweet grass book for Xmas! Will have to check it out. I am learning so much from these breakdowns. I also appreciated you sharing the example with your mom. You got me good a few times. Playing the role of good daughter. Depleting your bandwidth that could be used for something better? Even asking us to think of the times we don’t stand for ourselves. I think of it as by not standing up for myself I’m giving the other person a gift. Even if it’s just a gift of not being a burden. But I’m being selfless to make things better for someone else. I never thought of it as abandoning myself. Or that the years I have left matter too. Woah this one got me real good. Thanks for making me think. 🩶
All of this tugs at my heart ❤️
I agree! This one definitely hit home. When I dived deep into where this pattern of self-abandonment came from, I realized that it wasn't all on my mother, and that tantamount moment in my life when she literally abandoned me just as I was entering school. I thought that pivotal experience had shaped me more than it actually had. In truth, our whole culture had been teaching me self-abandonment almost from birth, as a female especially. All the repetition of that question, "What will you BE when you grow up?" as if I were presently nothing, not yet BE-ing anything of value or a recognizable, useful category of person. In an odd sort of way, it lightened the burden surrounding my relationship with my mother and helped me celebrate the wins in recent years when I have learned truly not to abandon myself, which is far worse than someone else abandoning me. Great questions, Maria!
Mars is often presented with a simplified slant. It helped me to really look at when and how I take action and ask whether I was consistently applying my Mars or whether I was out of alignment somewhere - and why.
❤️ all the exploration and excavation you are doing! Know that you are in good company!
Thank you, Maria. This is so helpful and I am glad to be back to my astro studies and explorations after the hectic holiday season. I'm thankful that I journaled and answered those two big questions in depth before reading on. Mars in Cancer (opposing Sun and Jupiter in Cap) couldn't be more spot on as a modus operandi than your description and I'm glad I mined that through my journal explorations before confirming it externally. Home is where the heart(h) is and the essential foundation of all that I do. I feel less ashamed of my need to retreat and steward my solitude, in order to be effective socially (selectively and with careful intention).
Our birth chart can be such a touchstone for us. I am glad you are finding ground there!